Hi Sia, thank you very much for your time today. I feel that this interview is going to be very special because, to me, you're pure magic. I'm very, very excited to hear your story. To start with, tell us a little about yourself - whatever you feel is important to share at this moment.
Hmm, I am having a lot of space within today and connecting to my body. And I love this feeling. I told you before that my moon is going to come soon, so I'm in this state of being able to not be in my mind, really, but in other places. And I love it. So I'm actually really curious about what comes through me when you ask me that question because it feels like it is a huge question, isn’t it?
…I have no fu*king idea. (laughs) I don't know. I will have to meet myself now, in a sense, and I'm really not sure what is going to come to me, in my human self.
I was born in Spain. This is why I have this accent. I have a secret: I was born with another name. My birth name is Noa. Noa means “the river that flows”, and it is quite symbolic because I'm very flowy. I am very much like a river - always changing and shifting. People who know me would say that I can be fierce, and I can be super vulnerable. I can be super soft and super hard. It can be the whole spectrum of the human self, and I really relate to that. I have many, many different phases, and perhaps this is why it's really difficult for me to say who I am. It depends on the day.
So, I was born as Noa. I was born into a quite conservative family that was not very conscious or empowering. There's a lot of karma there. I love them so much, but it wasn’t a space where the uniqueness of children would be supported. It was a lot of discipline and a lot of Catholic values. And I'm actually quite wild (laughs). So it was quite a journey during all of my childhood and teenage years. It felt like a battle, like I was battling with a wall - really bringing this wild energy, innocence, and curiosity into the space, challenging others, mirroring their behaviour, and not having, during that time, a safe foundation, a safe container to meet myself.
So that was the environment, and I was really trying to leave my home as soon as possible. I studied really hard, got a business degree and a master's degree - the whole thing - just to move to Barcelona, to be independent, and to find myself. And I did all of those things. That is when my true nature, my wildness, started to unfold as I was having more space around me without my family but with the people I chose.
I realized that I didn't like my profession at all (I was a private banker). I was like, “What the fu*k, what am I doing here in high heels all the time, working with all these investment funds, when I'm actually…” I mean, yes, it was fun, but I'm not that at all. So at some stage of my life, I quit everything. I was 27 or 28 years old. That was a big piece. I didn't follow my mind at all. It was a soul calling - something that I couldn't say “No” to. It felt like if I don’t do this, I’m going to die. That's it. There’s no option. I can't do this anymore. And so I left banking. I left my relationship. I left my house - everything. I got a bag, thinking, "I’m just going to go to Thailand".
And at that time, I met a Brazilian guy. He was the opposite of the life I was living—very adventurous (Sagittarius, you know), traveling around the world. For me, he was like a fire that ignites when you want to do something but have doubts, and someone says to you, “Oh yes, you can! You’re doing it already!” He was very supportive and encouraging. He’s one of my best friends now.
So, we started an adventure together, traveling through many different countries. On that journey, I reconnected with the innocent child within me that had felt like it was dying in my limiting and conditioned way of living. I reconnected with that part of me that was simply happy - just looking at the sunset or feeling water on my face. I utilized all of these travels and all of those lands to reclaim aspects of myself. Every trip, every land offered something back to me. It was a reflection journey, filling and filling my soul and confidence to the point where I said to myself, “Okay, I want to show up as I am, not as I should be”.
I arrived in New Zealand after visiting many different countries, and there was something about this land - this sense of safety, the feeling that the soul can actually land here. I was like, “Okay, but it’s really far away.” (laughs) Also, “What am I going to do here?” I guess I just knew I wanted to stay here. That was 12 years ago, and I began another journey.
This journey was entrepreneurship. It is something that I have in my blood - setting up businesses, finding ideas, and approaching entrepreneurship in a playful way based on what I really like to do. I allowed myself to try things that perhaps, in Spain, I would not have dared to try. Because in Spain, we don’t have that culture of entrepreneurship. There, you can’t fail.
But here in New Zealand, I thought, “If I fail, I’ll try something different.” So I did a lot of that. Then, my Brazilian boyfriend and I separated. (It was a kind and beautiful separation, and now we are friends.) At that moment, something new landed - Tantra.
There was something about it, another space to explore something I was really longing for. I’ve always felt connected with my body. I was always dancing. But the concept of Tantra - meeting spirituality with my body, embracing sexuality - was something I had been longing for but didn’t even know was possible.
I started doing long, deep trainings and discovered that what I was really looking for wasn’t the piece about sexuality at all - it was the magic. It was the spirituality beyond that. I found myself working shamanically and diving really deep into rituals and ceremonial spaces. Sexuality wasn’t the focus for me anymore. I mean, it was good, but it became more about the spiritual realms I could access when a sacred space was created. I journeyed very deeply into this for a few years.
And it was during that journey that my name changed to Sia. It wasn’t a conscious decision - it happened in a ritual. I was moving a lot of energy, and sometimes, when you are working with energies in the body, the voice unlocks, and sounds come in. And then it came, like, “Siii-a.” It was very pleasurable, with a sense of deep relief—like something inside me that I had never expressed in my life finally came to life.
In Spanish, Sia—“Si”—means “yes.” For me, it symbolized saying yes to life, yes to meeting life more deeply. The name I was born with, while beautiful, means “no”—Noa.
Wow!
Exactly. So then I started practicing with that name and its sound. It carried a different vibration. It was also another opportunity to present myself in a way I hadn’t known before. Again, this is why it’s so difficult to answer this question—who are you? (laughs)
So yeah, I’ve been journeying with Sia for around 10 years now, diving deeply into ceremony, ritual, and shamanism. A lot of people in New Zealand know me because of this work. However, since I became a mom, something clicked again - like a shake. It was a calling to reclaim Noa and bring them back together.
So I’m at this moment in my life where these two polarities in me are trying to meet somewhere in the middle: Noa represents the mundane - she is goal-oriented, hands-on, grounded - while Sia is the soul, this powerful energy, something that sees beyond. Neither is better than the other. So this is where I am right now, and I have no idea how it is going to unfold. But it feels like we’re really close right now.
This is fascinating. Would you mind telling us about how being a mom has impacted your life?
Ah (smiles)…becoming a mom has been the hardest and, at the same time, the most beautiful initiation I have ever experienced. You know, before being a mom, I would put myself in really difficult situations. I’ve been through soul initiations, mystery schools, shadow work retreats - like, full on. Being a mom has been much more (laughs).
I believe giving birth is the death of any woman: we die and we are reborn with the baby. You feel like, “Okay, that was the old version of me, and now another version of me is emerging.” Definitely. I don’t know any woman who would say, “I haven’t changed.” No.
But in my case, what happened was that conception and pregnancy were so hard and karmic that they became my initiation. There was a deeper layer to it. At that time, I had been in a relationship for almost three years. However, at the moment of conception, we were experimenting with an open relationship. We were very immature and lacked good communication skills. We got really hurt. A lot of things happened during that time. So when I got pregnant, we split one month later.
That was perhaps my biggest fear - to have a child by myself. At that time, I was very naive, and in a relationship, I was extremely devoted and committed to love for life.
So that hit me everywhere. From the beginning, until I could process that pain, I was just furious. I was like this lioness, thinking, “Okay, I’m just going to do this by myself. I’ve got this.” You know, a coping mechanism - survival mode. I spent a year and a half in that mode, also doing so many beautiful things, like retreats and so on, but without really feeling the heat.
When I stopped breastfeeding - or just before that - the heat came. The reality of the pain. I had never experienced anything close to it before in my life. It was so heartbreaking. But it was also a realization that the pain had been with me all along. I just couldn’t access it because I was in this protective space.
It was beautiful - this mix of the most joyful and happiest moments of my life, because I had a baby, and that baby was beautiful (laughs) - and at the same time, the deepest pain. People would ask me, “How can you be so in grief and so in joy at the same time?” I mean, I don’t know, but I was. And I still am.
Having Alejandro - I can’t even explain the joy he brings into my life. And at the same time, he reflects my own pain.
This is such a beautiful feminine initiation that even words cannot describe it - how it impacts the psyche, the body. It has made me humble. It feels like the baby brought me to my knees, to see not only the light but also the dark, to embrace it.
I was by myself. I had just birthed the baby, and two months later, Covid came.
Oh my God!
So, I was by myself for a year and a half - I didn’t see anyone. I was on a farm with chickens (laughs). My family was in Spain, so I had to do it all by myself. I wasn’t sleeping, I was so tired, but at the same time, I was so happy because I could do everything my way. There was no conditioning, no one telling me how to do it. Me and Ale had this connection, like, we’re a team, we’ve got this, and we’re on a journey with each other - and the chickens (laughs).
So it was that raw initiation into becoming a mom. It wasn’t anything that I was expecting, you know, that standard idea of setting up your home nest, being with your partner for 5–10 years, having all the support, etc. Nothing like this. It was very humbling. It was a lot of learning and unconditional love. I had never experienced anything like it before in my life.
Would you say that was the biggest challenge in your life?
Yeah, definitely. And the most precious gift at the same time. If I have to highlight the most challenging time, I would say it was that moment of being alone, pregnant, and knowing that it was always going to be like this.
But all the challenges were placed in front of me in a way that I always felt really held and really blessed. I don’t know how to explain. It was intense, painful, and raw, but at the same time, something was always holding me - like a kiss on my cheek. It could be a friend, it could be something magical, it could be a client. I was always held and blessed. So it was a very, very beautiful journey at the same time.
This is so powerful. You mentioned that your moon has come. So I am wondering, what are your practices in such times, and in general, when you feel down? What are your rituals? How do you recharge?
Always listening to my body. I am tapping into my body right now, and it feels like there is a need to slow down the rhythm of life. How can I slow down in my routine, in my schedule? Can I make the schedule more spacious? Because my body needs that space. Usually, in the morning, I do an intense strength workout, like masculine work. But today, you know, it feels like that has to soften. And perhaps there will still be a little bit of this if I choose to. But there will be more dance, there will be more prayer, more meditation, and there will be certain music that I need to listen to. I'm not fully switched on right now. I need more soft fabrics around me. Perhaps today it’s going to be a blankie, some cozy clothes I like to wear, and cacao. I really listen to my body as the one that holds the wisdom to meet my moon in this case, and I also know that this will change, too. It is always changing. So how can I meet that change as an intelligence that is guiding me into more connection to life?
What is love to you?
When you said this, what came to mind was union. I love the term union. And perhaps there is this question that I'm in relationship with: What is love? I don't know yet. It is something that I can't define with words. But for me right now, it is the union piece. And by union, I mean bringing all aspects of me into union, not just orienting the questions outward. How can I be in union with you? How can I be sensitive enough to recognize your uniqueness and mine, and find a place where we can meet each other? Within my own constellation, in my system. How can I recognize the differences in me and create enough space, enough breath, where everything is welcome?
So for me, love always has that inclusivity and recognition. It creates enough space to welcome everything, even if it's hard or confronting. But I also recognize that love is something so big that we should always be in relationship with this question.
And what is happiness?
I don’t know how to define happiness. For me, it is like a taste that cannot be encapsulated in a box to be there forever. It is always flowing. And it's like a kiss. It’s an energy of remembrance and celebration. It’s this connection to the deep knowing of life that brings that energy in. You cannot hold it. It comes, leaves a mark, and goes. It comes and goes as we meet life.
Beautiful... Could you tell us more about this knowing of life?
For me, it is working with relationships. My first relationship, my primary relationship, is my relationship with life. My second relationship is the relationship with myself. And the third relationship is a relationship that I choose to have with others - loving partner, friends, or whoever.
But the first one, the anchor, is my relationship with life in a sense that this breath that I'm having is an opportunity. It is a gift that has been given to me. That is my relationship with life, that intelligence that is providing me the capacity to breathe, that capacity to be able to talk to you and be in this space.
My relationship with that intelligence is the knowledge, that awareness, that appreciation, and that intimacy I need to spend every day with. I can call it Life, I can call it the Universe. I can call it God, Goddess, Source, Force. So many different traditions and religions call it in different ways. But at the end of the day, it comes to: “Are you by yourself? Who are you with?” Life - the breath of life - can be reflected through your own breath, through your own heartbeat, through nature. But what is it? How can I anchor myself in a deep relationship of trust, commitment, and intimacy with life, in a way that then I can connect as a personality, as a soul? Noa-Sia, my skills, my traits, all of these things.
And only then can there be a relationship with another human, with another personality, with another unique soul relationship with life.
So it's quite complex, but I like to express these different relationships to identify that there is much more and that we should go to the Source first.
How wise. What inspires you on a daily basis? Where does your inspiration come from?
Humans (laughs). Yeah, I feel in this aspect of my life, I'm welcoming a lot of Noa. A lot of Noa means also mundane. I really orient myself toward humans. I am very curious about people. I get inspired by just observing and witnessing people. I’ve recently come back to social dancing because I wanted to open up my gaze into different communities and different groups. I was very into the spiritual, and I wanted to see myself in another environment. So, being curious about that environment and those beings and how we relate - I get a lot of inspiration from it.
When I'm more in Sia, in the part of me that is connected to my essence, my soul, my dharma, I get inspired by nature and by art that comes from the soul. So, any piece of music or someone dancing from feelings inspires me.
So I would say humans, I would say nature, and how life moves through nature, humans and art.
Another thing that inspires me, and I think this is more connected to my personality, is something that is opposite to me. When someone or something reflects me in a totally different mindset, a way of being, or a way of thinking—oh my god, I’m so attracted to that.
For example, if I am deeply on a path of spirituality, when someone comes and shows me something completely different, not even spiritual at all, but genuine, so pure and in alignment with that person. It wakes me up, it lifts the veil. And I think “Oh my god, you’re so authentic, your soul is so connected to the Source in your own fu*king way that it doesn't have to be like my way at all, and you inspire me.”
So yeah, this is also something that I love—connecting opposites in union. It just gets juicy for me. I get curious, and I get so much pleasure from it.
Being so connected to yourself and to the Source, when you see other people who are not connected, quite unaware of the pain they are carrying and the pain they are causing others - how do you deal with that? Isn't that heartbreaking?
Not for me. I don't know if it's my naivety or innocence, but I assume that everyone is connected in a way. After all, they are breathing, right? So they are connected. When people come into my life, I'm not judging - whether you're connected or not connected -I don't know. I just know my own experience. I have no fu*king idea how connected you are.
I don't believe that there is a certain number of people awakened on the planet, and then, you know, we are going to save the world. That is fu*king BS. Sometimes we have this kind of connection, and sometimes we don't.
We try to read people and label them in spirituality, but in fact, we know nothing. I've been in so-called spiritual environments where I felt a lack of presence or sensing. And I've been in other places, not labelled as spiritual at all, where I was really touching my heart and sensing the Source. And shouldn’t we just focus on ourselves and recognize that we are actually as fu*ked up as everyone else? Sometimes we have this deeper wisdom and insights coming in, and sometimes we don't.
That's so true. I was probably coming more from a perspective where people are hurting, but when you look from the side, you can see that this can be changed for the better.
I guess it depends on the context. When it's something that touches my own heart-and often it is the feminine, like someone who's not able to express their emotions, whether they’re in a male or female body -I try to model. I try to bring my own tears, bring my own fu*kness, to show that it's okay. We can be really fu*ked, we can cry for real, we can be really fu*king angry - and it's okay. We need to normalize all of these things.
And this is my work, something I'm passionate about - finding ways I can help, through my own transmission, the feminine to rise. And by the feminine, I mean the intelligence that is inhabiting the body. It's not just about women; it’s for everybody. It’s those qualities that do not belong to the mind space, that belong to another realm, that have cycles and different flavours.
So if it touches me, I bring in that model, that transmission. If it's something that doesn't touch me, that doesn't really resonate with me, I don't have to. I just place a boundary.
Can you talk more about feminine?
How I see the feminine versus the masculine - and I'm going to go a little into the Tantra approach here - the masculine is consciousness. In Tantra, it is called Shiva. It's the part of us that witnesses everything, able to discern and take a little bit of space out of the emotional experience, seeing everything with the eyes of a bird. Like, “Oh, I'm a human, and I have this body. I'm feeling this, but I'm much more than this.” It's spirit itself.
And the feminine, in contrast to that, is called Shakti. Shakti encompasses everything that belongs to the realm of matter, the realms of this world. That means everything that is flesh. We are born, we grow up, we die.
That cycle that repeats every month in a woman - we are able to die every time we bleed, and then we are reborn, and then we die again - that cycle of movement is Shakti. Shakti is energy that is moving all the time. It is not linear; it’s chaotic. It is shifting. It’s one day crying, and two days later laughing. I’m not saying this from the societal concept of a woman as mad or crazy. I’m talking about the intelligence of nature, an intelligence based on seasons.
We go from winter to autumn, from spring to summer. We are shifting, and in that shift, there is a different expression of being. There are flowers coming up; there is rain coming down. There’s heat; there’s cold. There is expansion, and there is contraction. That is the breath of life, the gift we have been given - that is the feminine.
And I’m really passionate about it because, for almost 6,000 years, the world’s orientation has been towards the masculine - the witness: emotions are not right. You can’t be emotional. You need to be rational. Everything that is in agreement with society has to be proven scientifically. If you prove it, it’s truth. If you don’t prove it, it’s not. That’s the masculine.
Well, the feminine is different. The feminine is the direct felt experience of reality. It has different protocols and laws. It has been dormant. That is the world of the shamanic, the unseen, feelings, sensations, subtleties, magic. There’s so much there.
That is my passion: how can we bring it back? Through a woman. (laughs) Because we have this body that is connected to the feminine, because we have a womb that is constantly bleeding. We are designed to connect to that intelligence.
When a woman wakes up her Shakti energy, it’s just like the whole intelligence of the feminine comes alive. I’m not saying the masculine is not online. The masculine has to be online because it has to be a witness, it has to be a space holder, and there has to be a connection to spirit.
But Shakti is life - that Kundalini energy that rises up. And when these two are together in union - boom! Superhuman. (laughs) But yeah, I’m an agent of the feminine.
I used to say I work for the Goddess. (laughs) Someone would ask me, “Where do you work?” I’d reply, “I work for the Goddess.” Because it’s true. Everything that I’m doing is to honour Her.
That’s so fascinating. Thank you so much.
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